In a tough situation

Sometimes, it is so hard and impossible to get the best of two worlds. 手心手背都是肉。

And if one of them compromises, i will feel very bad for them to 委屈自己。

最后我的手心或手背会流血。

I jolly well know each of them's needs and it will be selfish of me to get the best of the best.

Many will see as i'm pessismistic.

They will think " come on , things aint always goin to the bad side of the coin , u study probability right? sure u do . "

Sure i do but i'm afraid its just a one tail distribution.

Its just that i cannot afford to lose when it comes to such situation and my mind will think of all sort of pessismistic stuff plus, previously, i encountered really bad expriences.

Who doesnt want to have a really near to perfect solution, i wished i have that too. Am i that lucky? God knows.

I know for me to give up will be quite unfair to all. It is supposed to be a looking forward thing and ended up to be an empty shell.

If u want me to measure fairness in general and importance of that both worlds. Ashie's equation will be FAIRNESS < IMPORTANCE OF BOTH WORLDS. Note that its always an inequality.

Then one shall asked :" Just think what u want to make you happy lo "

My answer is, i will do things if i really wish to and will be very firm with it , but this time, maybe its my "wrong move of chess" and screwed it up. I think i shall be more tactful next time.

*Ashie is trapped*